“Why me?” This question pops up when I’m spiraling or having a rough time. This question has popped up a lot recently as I’ve been exhausted and overwhelmed with constant trauma (not just with my illness).
I always seem to loop back around to it somehow being my fault or something I deserve. Logically, I know this isn’t right, but our brains work in weird ways and I end up beating myself up and putting some kind of blame on myself.
I spoke with my psychologist about this. He obviously couldn’t tell me why I’ve been handed so much to deal with, but he did try to explain a bit of the history behind my illness which helped me logically process “the why.” Behçet’s disease (also known as Silk Road disease) is found predominantly in people with