It’s such a disturbing feeling, constantly waking up wanting to die or wishing you were dead. I mean, how can you be that depressed when you just woke up?
How… why? Nothing even happened yet. You haven’t even had the chance to think about something bad happening. You literally just woke up, opened your eyes and said, “fuck, I’m still alive!” Then, you lay there until you can muster up the energy to get out of bed and face yet another day.
Sometimes it takes a few minutes; sometimes it takes an hour or more. But, eventually, you do it. You get out of bed. Sometimes you brush your teeth right away, because you know if you don’t, you won’t.
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