I live with chronic suicidal ideation, which at times becomes acute. In these moments of crisis, I am often asked, “How can I help?” I know it is frustrating, but in those moments I have no idea what to tell you.
My mind is spiraling and overwhelmed. Part of me doesn’t even consider suicide a problem. I have had these thoughts my whole life.
They are who I am. Moreover, I am fiercely independent. I don’t want to be a bother. I don’t want to ask for “help.” My answer will usually be, “It’s OK.