At its worst I thought that people were out to get me. Extinction Rebellion. A cult. The Masons. My co-workers. My friends. The conspiracy kept changing and evolving based on things I saw in the world around me.“The conspiracy was like a kaleidoscope, constantly changing to show a new reality.”For a while I thought I was singularly responsible for global warming, or that I was on a Derren Brown TV special.
The conspiracy was like a kaleidoscope, constantly changing to show a new reality.This is because I experience psychosis (a symptom where you break from reality which often involves experiences such as delusions, where your beliefs do not line up with reality) and hallucinations (where you have sensory experiences others do not, such as hearing voices or seeing things that aren’t there).For years after being diagnosed with psychosis, I felt completely hopeless.
I was on antipsychotics and experiencing considerable side-effects including akathisia, which is where you feel the compulsive desire to move.
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