It was at that point I knew I was not ok. I had sleepless nights, nightmares, anxiety and panic attacks.We were told during our training that we will all have one call that would stick with us, and that was mine.After a week of not feeling right, I had no choice but to speak up.
I told my boss first, as I dreaded going to work and being in the same environment as where it all happened. He put me in touch with the Ambulance Service who then referred me to the Trauma Incident Management team.
I felt weak, like I wasn’t cut out for the job. I felt guilty and that I could have done more or been stronger.After a few days I had my first Trauma session.Read more on mind.org.uk